I am a planner. Plain as that. I want to know what's going to happen, when it's going to happen, and what is going to happen after it happens. This year is a year of unknowns and I'm freaking out.
For as long as I've been alive I've always known what's next. After third grade, I knew I had to switch schools. After fifth grade, I knew I was going to the big middle school. After eighth grade came the frightening high school. Even though I didn't know what would happen in college I knew that I was going to Auburn after I graduated high school. I came to Auburn knowing exactly what I wanted to be when I grew up. After a year of struggling in classes that dream went away and new plans came into play very quickly (because not knowing scares the crap out of me). After switching degrees, I began planning my future immediately to figure out where I would work and what I would be.
After two years of planning what I would be after graduation, I have no idea what those plans are and honestly I don't think I ever knew what I wanted to do. Graduation is less than 4 months away and I have no idea where I will be living, working, or doing with my life. I guess this is suppose to be fun for some people but my personality doesn't care for this unknown at all.
I have no idea how to plan what will happen after May 6th because it isn't in my control. The best thing I can do is hope that what I think I want to be and where I want to be will eventually fall into the "plan".
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