I have lived in Anniston/Oxford, AL for my entire life. When I first came to Auburn I told everyone I was from Anniston because if I said Oxford everyone stared at me like I had three heads. Small town USA is how I always referred to my hometown.
Everyone says to remember where you came from. Know where your roots grow. I love the adults in my hometown. They helped me grow into the young lady I am becoming, they pushed me through hard times, and I never had to worry about my safety or well being when adults were around. But when it came to high school aged people my worries were always high. I was never secure after seventh grade. I didn't believe in myself, I questioned everything, I wanted attention, but did not know how to make friends. Is it bad that I don't necessarily want to remember where I came from?
I have dreamed, since the seventh grade, about moving to a big city and making all my dreams come true. I have wanted to live in a high rise, with a dog, a great job, and a rocking life. I always said I would never get married, have kids, or live in a big house. Some of my dreams have changed but for the most part they still remain the same. I still find myself, almost daily, dreaming about my future and what could be.
Auburn has been a great place for me to be these last four years. It was just far away enough from all the pain I felt towards Oxford and it was just a tad bigger. Although, Oxford is probably the same size as Auburn is now. Anyways, these past four years have gone by fast but I think that is just another way of saying it's time for a new chapter. Each day I feel myself getting closer and closer to the dreams I've always had for my life. I cannot wait to see what the future holds for me.
I want to make a disclaimer on this blog because I don't want anyone to feel unappreciated. I greatly appreciate all the adults who have shaped my life. Without them, I would still be lost and Auburn would not have been as fabulous as it is/was. Also, I want my family to know that I do not blame them for any of my hatred to Oxford. I brought it upon myself. You all just got the unsatisfactory job of dealing with my stubborn/difficult self. I want to thank you for having patience with me. I have become a better person because of the patience you all had with me.
In closing, I do not think there is anything wrong with moving on. I will never forget where I came from but I will always be looking forward to the next big thing. However, I am truly scared that I will not make it in this big city dream of mine. Please pray that I continue to grow and learn so that I will be able to live the life I've always dreamed of having.
God Bless,
Kayla
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